You would think that I would feel better that 2012 looks like a good year for us, but actually it just allows for a lot of anxiousness in me. I'm ready. I'm done waiting. But it just isn't a sure thing either.
Seems like everyone is asking for siblings now. Probably because of the long wait, they think that they should get it over with now and get their 2 kids. Just seems like it.
So that may make the wait longer. May mean that we accept just one child. Definitely means that God will intervene and make it all good.
In the meantime, I'm working through the books. I'm finally reading through "In Their Own Voices" and I'm hitting every blog and website I can find about black hair care. Just so much reading I can do on that until I just need some black hair to care for.
As my anxiousness sets in, it feels familiar. I'm praying more. I'm seeking God out more for his word and his timing. That feels good. I've said with my first and now with my 3rd and maybe 4th child, I never feel closer to the Lord than when I'm waiting for my children. That is good.
1 comments:
I hear you. We're just behind you on the waitlist (S-DC family) and I feel like all I do in any spare is check the FBI, other people's blogs, hope for texts from my adoption friends with news, or see some movement in the process. This is getting hard!! Hang in there. . .
Jean
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